Saturday, October 24, 2009

What I wanted to say

I wanted to say, I am not your daughter. I am not your girlfriend, I am not your toy, I am NOT an alternative when your little blue pill doesn't work for you. My sanity has been compromised for decades and its not my fault its YOURS. YOU are to blame for the HELL I have been through since birth. you may be some "different kind of breed" but whatever that is, I am NOT of that breed. I am not your "GIRL", I am NOT an object here for your pleasure. I was not born just to bring you happiness. What you were doing was not "teaching me" that life is beautiful. You were teaching a disgusting lesson. You knew you were wrong, you didn't care. You did it anyway. you left me scarred, confused, guilty, hating myself for years. you may have spent one night in jail, ONE NIGHT!... I have been locked in a prison for decades!, with no parole!. I have written letters to you over and over again just trying to get the ANGER out, the HURT out, with little to NO comfort. yet you live your life free and clear every day no repercussion. I am supposed to just sit next to you and smile like everything is peachy keen every time you are around, but it isn't. and it wont be ever again. you don't deserve to have a label stating your relationship to me you SICK BASTARD. father, brother or even sperm donor is NOT acceptable. you are nothing more than the monster under my bed and in my head. you don't deserve freedom. you don't deserve the air we breathe. you deserve to be castrated with all the other pedophiles. with no pain meds. just stick your head in a vice so you cant get away and have a rusty pair of scissors chop all that dangles right off. I have no sympathy for you. you are sick, twisted and vile!!!. your mouth should be sewn shut with a dull needle so you never have the chance to utter another word or brain wash another person with one bit of the bull shit you speak. your hands should be removed at the wrists so you can never touch another human being again. and your feet should be removed at the ankles so you cant run away when those demons come to get you. karma is a bitch and shes got your name on her list!

Monday, October 5, 2009


there's a lot to be said for a positive attitude...yet sometimes its just hard to find it... I couldn't help myself when I saw this... I had to post it. toooo cute and true!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Friday, October 2, 2009

JESUS jumping on a po-go-stick! I need some mascara!

yup... i was surfin the LOLcats and theres just sooooo much to see.... and learn. ha.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

yeah... i need to exercize...

so where do i get one of these dogs?... or Asian men.... either one.

Sunday, September 20, 2009